Hi. It's been months!! Haha. Maybe I should just close this blog and be done with it.

I sometimes get kind of pissed off when people say "government kerja lembap" and the private sector is like the most efficient thing on planet Earth. Mungkin ada a few government people yang sucks at their job maka menjejaskan sistem penyampaian. But that cannot be concluded for all the people in the public sector. Hello people, private sector pun ain't that efficient you know. Ambil masa yang lama untuk hantar report, finally hantar but isi kosong and they didn't even bother to send the original copy. They just faxed it so all I can see is a few papers full of black ink. Genius. Moral of the story: Tiada yang sempurna. And I find that people can really talk like nobody's business when it comes to other people's job. Kerja kau macam mana? Dah cukup habis baik ke kau buat?

I sometimes think I always make wrong decisions. And right now is one of those times. But it is always too late whenever I realize it.

I wanna go on a holiday. I want to go away. Get away. Awayyy.. Visiting Matta Fair this weekend will be a good idea.

Also, I am thinking of changing this blog's link. Or tutup terus and bukak baru. It doesn't matter that nobody even read it. Just for the sake of writing since my diary is completely abandoned nowadays. I need to write but I'm too lazy to write pun so watpe nak ada blog? Or maybe I need to start writing back in my diary? Maybe.

I am bored. I made the wrong decision. Oh swell.

My life since last Thursday had been miserable. And I mean really. This one thing really bugs me, affect me more than I could imagine. I think about it a lot, I cried bucketfull and to the extent that when I'm alone I'll get all moody, mourning macam ada kematian, teary-eyed, crying and everything. Sampai I had to take an EL yesterday sebab duduk kat ofis pun memang takde mood nak buat kerja. Dah tu macam mana nak buat kerja kalau asyik menangis je?

Anyway friends, be careful with everything you do in life 'cause as Queenie (The Curious Case of Benjamin Button) quoted,

You never know what's coming to you.

As for me, I hope I'll survive this horror.

sori Azi. Ni je gambar senonoh yang ade. Hehe

A friend asked me, "Mai, ko dah tak tulis blog ke?". So here goes one post, all dedicated specially to you kawan. Heheh.



This friend of mine is my peneman hari-hari suka duka. She is always there setiap hari bila aku balik rumah (sebab dia housemate aku. Hehe). She wrote me the sweetest speech ever in the wedding card she gave me till I cried. She has been through a lot lately. I couldn't imagine how I will survive if I were in her place..



To Aziah, I dedicate this song especially for you:





I believe that in time my heart will heal again
And I believe that in time my heart will feel again
So I keep on holding on
So I keep on being strong

Cos I know one day I'm gonna feel again


I know one day I'm gonna feel again
And I know although my heart hurts now
I'll find a way to get up off the ground
Cos I know one day I'm gonna feel again

I believe that this heart of mine can make it through
And I believe that my heart can make it over you


So I keep on holding on
So I keep on being strong

And though it's hard for me to breathe
And even harder to believe
I know that one day I'm gonna find
I'm gonna be just fine

Sebab I know you are strong!

Here's wishing you all the best in life and di tempat baru. Good luck finding the you-know-what. Hehe. I will miss you and kehidupan bujang kita :)