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i cant wait to get back home

i wanna lie down, curling into a ball on my bed

thursday blues..

my oh-not-so-good-mornin

my morning's off to a rocky start. no mornin wish to make me smile

frustration tak bleh bukak cd prison break semalam terbawak2 sampai ke pagi ni

got into a fight with my sis. and i accidentally hempas pintu kereta dia. i texted sorry but she is being her usual egoistic self. no reply. or maybe she's busy

my stomach is aching. and my back is killing me. i hate pms!

escapism

i think i may have found my means of escapism

true. it may just be for a short while. it may be nothing. it may even means nothing

but at least, it makes me smile.. makes me feel warm inside..

even if it is nothing, just something for the moment. but like i said, it's my means of escapism. so just let me be.. ;p

hollidae

+nice kan? kan?

i opened up my post today with this pix, which really gave me a nice feeling just by looking at it. mcm so peaceful and such a beauty. nature at it's best. seronok tau naik buaian ni. sambil kaki main2 air laut and sepak2 pasir. i found my tranquillity here. mish!

+sunset @ teluk nipah

+how i wish life can always be this peaceful and serene. sigh..

btw these pixs were taken from my trip to pangkor. for a damn boring kursus. but soo worth it! ;p

andra and the backbone's sempurna

Kau begitu sempurna
Di mataku kau begitu indah
Kau membuat diriku akan selalu
memujamu

Di setiap langkahku ku kan
selalu memikirkan dirimu
Tak bisa ku bayangkan
Hidupku tanpa cintamu

Janganlah kau tinggalkan diriku
tak kan mampu menghadapi semua
Hanya bersamamu ku akan bisa

Kau adalah darahku
Kau adalah jantungku
Kau adalah hidup ku lengkapi diriku
oh sayang engkau begitu sempurna .. sempurna

Kau genggam tanganku
saat diriku lemah dan terjatuh
kau bisikkan dan hapus semua sesalku

Sayangku engkau begitu sempurna.. sempurna.. sempurna..

+not that i have anybody sempurna in mind. i just love this song. it's kind of soothing. and thanx to a friend i can now listen to the song everyday! yippee!

thank God for the things you have

tadi, for the first time ever in my life, i walked along a railway. not to commit suicide. but for work

and met all these ppl living a hard life. living in houses barely there, tungu masa je nak runtuh. not enough money even for food let alone nice clothes and all those little luxuries

a mother of 5 whose husband married another, left her without returning even once and wanted to throw her out of the house. an old couple earning money and living life just by selling buah pinang. just how much could they get from that?

that's whyla mcm shoutout friendster aku, walau sesusah/sesedih mne pn kte rse ingat, ade je lg org yg lg susah, lg sdeh dr kte. bear that in mind..

its true you know. tak payahla nk drama queen sangat kalo masalah kecik je. setakat kalo sakit hati or tak puas hati dengan kerja (note to self!). nak bsedih takpe. but don't go on feeling mcm nak mati, like life is over, like all hell breaks lose, like God is being unfair to you. tak payah nak dramatik sngat ye. there are lots more ppl worse than you

be thankful for what you have, appreciate more, for you will never know until when it'll last

merci beaucoup

pangkor! here i come! weehu..

i just found out tadi, i'll be going to pangkor next week for a course. 7-10th april. yeah baby!

although for a course, everyone know that is just an excuse, a solid reason to get the hell out of this boring office and go bercuti as well. cover baeeek pny. sambil kursus sambil jalan2. or maybe.. less kursus more jalan2? hee. i can smell it already. a holidaaaay..

uhh. i'm super excited!! monday, come come quick ;p

robyn's be mine

It's a good thing, tears never show in the pouring rain
As if a good thing ever could make up for all the pain
There'll be no last chance to promise to never mess it up again
Just a sweet pain of watching your back as you walk
As I'm watching you walk away
And now you're gone it's like an echo in my head
And I remember every word you said

It's a cold thing you never know all the ways I tried
It's a hard thing faking a smile when I feel
like I'm falling apart inside
And now you're gone it's like an echo in my head
And I remember every word you said

And you never were, and you never will be mine
No, you never were, and you never will be mine

For the first time, there's no mercy in your eyes
And the cold wind is hitting my face and you're gone
And you're walking away
And I'm helpless sometimes
Wishing's just no good
Cause you don't see me like I wish you would

Cause you never were, and you never will be mine
No, you never were, and you never will be mine

There's a moment to seize everytime that we meet
But you have always keep passing me by
But you never were, and you never will be mine
(I saw you at the station,
you had your arm around Whats her name?
She had on that scarf I gave you
you got down to tie her laces)

Cause you never were, and you never will be mine
(You looked happy and that's great)
No, you never were, and you never will be mine
(I just miss you, that's all)

addicted

i had once read an article on how malaysians especially the x- generation spent way too much money and time sms- ing. and i was like 'alah.. sms tu biasala. its kind of like a benda wajib to do everyday. nak kol mahal. so betterla sms kan'

but.. i just checked my message log and the numbers were kind of erm.. suprising? well, kind of. in 20 days, i had sent a total 553 sms, using 628 spaces and received back 539 sms using 571 spaces. that was like an average of 27 sms per day. i know i am an avid sms- user. or maybe you can call me an addicted user ;p come to think of it, the numbers were not really that much to me but it kind of membenarkan what i read in the article. we do spend waaay too much laa..

but cutting back was kind of... impossible? and like, what? no way! heehee