My life since last Thursday had been miserable. And I mean really. This one thing really bugs me, affect me more than I could imagine. I think about it a lot, I cried bucketfull and to the extent that when I'm alone I'll get all moody, mourning macam ada kematian, teary-eyed, crying and everything. Sampai I had to take an EL yesterday sebab duduk kat ofis pun memang takde mood nak buat kerja. Dah tu macam mana nak buat kerja kalau asyik menangis je?

Anyway friends, be careful with everything you do in life 'cause as Queenie (The Curious Case of Benjamin Button) quoted,

You never know what's coming to you.

As for me, I hope I'll survive this horror.

sori Azi. Ni je gambar senonoh yang ade. Hehe

A friend asked me, "Mai, ko dah tak tulis blog ke?". So here goes one post, all dedicated specially to you kawan. Heheh.



This friend of mine is my peneman hari-hari suka duka. She is always there setiap hari bila aku balik rumah (sebab dia housemate aku. Hehe). She wrote me the sweetest speech ever in the wedding card she gave me till I cried. She has been through a lot lately. I couldn't imagine how I will survive if I were in her place..



To Aziah, I dedicate this song especially for you:





I believe that in time my heart will heal again
And I believe that in time my heart will feel again
So I keep on holding on
So I keep on being strong

Cos I know one day I'm gonna feel again


I know one day I'm gonna feel again
And I know although my heart hurts now
I'll find a way to get up off the ground
Cos I know one day I'm gonna feel again

I believe that this heart of mine can make it through
And I believe that my heart can make it over you


So I keep on holding on
So I keep on being strong

And though it's hard for me to breathe
And even harder to believe
I know that one day I'm gonna find
I'm gonna be just fine

Sebab I know you are strong!

Here's wishing you all the best in life and di tempat baru. Good luck finding the you-know-what. Hehe. I will miss you and kehidupan bujang kita :)

Tengok ticker tepi nun.

1 month until our Big Day!

One month!! Kiki.. :)

Haven't been updating for quite some time. Yeah, I know I started my almost every post with that sentence or something similar. Heheh. Ape nak buat. I'm a lazy bum and I admit it.

The only reason I am writing this right now is because I'm sooo sleepy sampai tengah menulis deraf surat boleh terpejam mata. That is weird sebab pagi tadi aku tak mengantuk langsung. Terjadi mengantuk lepas brunch tadi. I think the makcik mi kicap terbubuh banyak ajinomoto lah dalam sup dia hari ni. So, I'm hoping by writing this, mata boleh kembali segar dan boleh sambung kerja.

You know, I have been meaning to talk about Maher Zain for quite some time now after seeing all the hype and news about him everywhere. Even in the office hari-hari berkumandang lagu Maher Zain. So, let me tell you the story of Maher and I (ewah ewah macam kisah cinta pulak).

I got to know Maher I think when he was not yet a name in Malaysia, somewhere around March this year. Maybe he was known to some people back then but not really a household name yet. My sister (I'm not sure from where she heard about him) was the one who introduced me to Maher Zain. An avid listener, she downloaded most of his song and she had been pestering me to have a listen! Masa tu aku rasa "ee.. pengacau betul la dia nih". Haha. So, one day after dia membebel-bebel lagi, I finally listened to him. Masa tu aku tengah surfing Internet pinjam her laptop and I asked my sister to play him in the background.

My first thought was "Not bad". I was never really a heavy fan of nasyid. Dengar tapi gitu-gitu jela. But as you all probably already know by now, Maher's nasyid is different. There is a little something there. So, I asked my sister to burn a cd for me. And, one day while I was waiting for Ashton to warm up, she slipped a cd inside the car's player without me knowing. Then, as I was just leaving, she messaged me saying "Cd Maher Zain ada dalam kereta hang". And so, I listened to Maher all along my journey to Ipoh over and over again.

Since then, cd tu tak pernah keluar lagi dari player tu and selalu jugak la terpasang. Hehe.

Among all the songs, I personally like Thank You Allah. Simply because of the simple message and how touching the song and lyrics are.

When my sister went to his showcase, she called me during Ya Nabi Salam Mualaika, For The Rest of My Life and Barakallah so that I can listen too. But too bad, he did not sang my favourite song. Hmm.. takpelah. Lain kali dia buat concert nak cuba pergi.

I wonder bila pulak Sami Yusuf akan glamour di Malaysia?

My sister is getting married in 3 days. Like 3 days! 3 hari okeh. Macam tinggal 3 hari je lagi untuk dia bergelar anak dara. Omaigod. Haha. Time flew so fast kan? It seems like only yesterday that we played camping with upturned sofa yang diselimutkan dengan selimut untuk jadi khemah! Hehe.

I don't know how I feel. I feel excited though. Can't wait nak start cuti sebab nak balik rumah tolong kemas-kemas, tolong buat hantaran, tolong menyibuk dan jadi buruh kasar. Can't wait nak pakai baju lace purple baru!!

Things will surely change a lot lepas ni kan? Dia akan ada rumah baru, extra family, other commitments. Nanti I balik Tepeng every weekend mesti dia takde kat rumah dah kan? Hmm.. nak gaduh dengan sape nanti? Raya nanti camne? I will be married too by then.. How's mak and ayah's raya's gonna be nanti? Hoho.

My sister, I never once called her kakak. I referred her as 'kakak aku' when talking to others about her but never once I called her kakak. Never. Mak pernah sound kenapa tak panggil kakak. But it was never practised since never. So, how suddenly in these older years nak start panggil kakak? But she is my only kakak in the true kakak sense even though I have 2 kakak. (Ape ni banyak sungguh perkataan kakak??). Those who knew my family well will know what I meant. Let's just say I am the middle sister in the family. Ada sorang kakak dan seorang 'adik' :)

To my dear kakak, I wish you the most beautiful wedding and may you be blessed with lots of happiness and children (aku nak jadi makcik!!). And perkahwinan ni aku doakan kekal sampai akhir hayat. I hope you will love the present I got you!! Hihi.

Kepada Fazrul (or abang Fazrul?? hehe), sila jaga kakak saya baik-baik. Jangan bagi saya menyesal ajar dia mengorat awak dulu. Hehheh.

Me and my kakak. While we were cruising Kuala Sepetang looking for fireflies.

The only picture I could find in my PC :)

I am still in the office. Bukan rajin bekerja tapi ada bukak pose free nanti. Makan free kenapa nak tolak kan? Stayback sebab rasa nak buat kerja. Tapi sekarang rasa takde moodnya nak buat kerja. Effect cuti panjang sangat?

Tak baik tau macam tu. Dah kena sound dengan Amar "B ni tak baik tau camtu. Dah la dapat 500". Owh, suci murninya dia ni. Huhu.

A friend's mom meninggal dunia recently. Aku rasa sedih.. And I kept thinking about that ever since. Kenapa ye? Lately, there have been a lot of things running in my mind. And I think most of them are inappropriate. Perkara yang tak patut difikirkan. Kalau fikir jugak memang akan menyusahkan aku satu hari nanti.

Whatever. Sorry, aku bosan dan rasa menyampah.

Hari tu aku rasa macam dah terjumpa tudung nikah. Yang ini sama kes dengan baju (love at first sight!). Hihi. Bila tengok je terus suka. Dalam hati fikir kalau tak pakai untuk nikah pun nanti nak pakai untuk hari-hari biasa. Sebab tudung tu nampak suci, simple, comel, cute, putih bersih dan segala macam lagilah kata-kata pujian yang ada.

Dia adalah sejenis tudung Syria. Tunjuk kat Amar dia cakap okay cun! (dengan tanda seru skali). Tapi bila tunjuk kat mak dan kakak mereka cakap macam tudung Indon. Haha. Tapi Amar cakap memangla fashion from Indon. Kan ke tudung Ariani tu pun amik nama sempena Ibu Ariani yang cerita ape tu eh? Mutiara Hati kalau tak silap. I was thinking of getting tudung awning untuk majlis nanti. So, kalau nikah pakai this type and sanding tudung awning taklah nampak sama sangat kan since both themes will be white (tula degil sangat nak buat kaler putih semua)

Berikut adalah tudung yang diperkatakan. Indon tak? (Abaikan muka bulat comot tu)


Tapi kenapa saya rasa tudung ni sangat sweet?