the day i feel awful

i'm not feeling really well today. had a major asthma attack yesternight. it had been so long since i last had one. it all started with a game of netball. i was already feeling sick before the game. what with the fever and non- stop coughing. tapi gatal jugak nak main. and yesterday we finally had full attendance and had enough players to play a full court

and so we played, and i was the centre. gila penat like hell. running around like mad all over the field. great fun, yes but much greater penat as well. we only played for about 30 minutes but that was enough to cause me gasping heavily for air. after finishing, my face felt really hot. macam semua blood da rushed up above my head. cc and lin pointed out yang muka aku merah gila. my heart was beating faster than you could call normal. and i could not wait to get home for a refreshing bath

balik semalam okay lagi. bila da malam, my breath started wheezing and i was like, uh- oh please no. but then, my old friend finally came jugak. suffice to say, i could not sleep the whole night. woke up feeling not much better but went to work anyway and here i am, typing this feeling like my chest is about to explode. i feel like my lungs are being squeezed in a teeny tiny bottle which makes breathing hurts. inhaling and exhaling are one great deal of a thing to do right now

am thinking of going to the hospital. later. dunno why i don't have the courage. padahal ni benda biasa. i have done it before. just that i have not done it in a long long time. and that makes it scarier. uhuhu

ptg ni de game lagi. friendly match. hope i can just sit on the sidelines and jadi pom- pom girl jelah